2016, ending of a really bad year.

Not only do we have had to witness a massive loss of talents this year. Artists and celebrities that filled my growing up with pleasant escapes from the daily ordinary life. We are witnessing the unavoidable process of growing older, and with that comes so much death of that we may have identified, looked up to or idolized. So many people we don’t know that still meant so much for us are simply – passing away.

To start naming people that mean something to me seems almost pity, a year like this. I can say that there are many who have passed that still makes me glum and feeling that a world that was mine, of my childhood and youth is now forever gone, or so changed in its fundamental’s, it is as good as lost.

Then we have the entire world going bananas. The election in US, the situation with global terrorism and IS. Refugee’s and the lack of preparation from a world where a few have been sitting safe with most of the money as long as the rest feel like they are doing OK. Now those values are changing and more people are looking around, to find inspiration and hope? Well, sadly, you can’t look up the chain, there are few that really have done anything for you. No, it’s time to look to the people standing next to you, reach out, however uncomfortable that may make you. Can we do it? Well, time will as always be a silent witness to our many mistakes and progresses.

Anything cheerful? Well, in a world that is so chaotic, there are things bound to happen. Creative people are starting to voice their ideas and thoughts. Authors, composers, writers, journalists, movies, TV series etc are full of these new creative ideas and calls for a better world. A more compassionate and sane world. There, is our escape.

For me, this year has on a personal and very egotistic way been a roller coaster of misery, self contemplation and a few successes. I have been rather ill and I haven’t been exactly ‘nice’ to myself. Why should I be, if so few others are, eh? And I’m good at not being nice to myself. When you don’t feel you are good at anything, they few things you do well, you tend to keep doing.  As you might have noticed, this blog is a step in trying to reverse this abysmal feeling I have had and challenge my own self esteem and self perception I have.

Will it succeed?

Only time…

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ISOBEL Short story In the Club (After crimson knight)

ISOBEL Short story In the Club (After crimson knight) this is a short story set in my fictitious world of a character named Isobel. Theme is Urban Fantasy with a twist of horror (not really scary though) and supernatural. The real thing is the social experience and how people interact with each other.

Isobel checked the addresses once more before sending it out. She had felt stupid when Veronica had reminded her that she had not really introduced her to her friends. So, she tried to recall what friends she had here. Not many. On her list were Sandra and Johnny, of course, but also Steven from the ‘Warehouse’ and her oldest brother Manus and his partner John. That’s about it she thought. She had more. Agent Miller and Tan would have been nice to invite. Tan had responded that he couldn’t attend, still recovering from some wounds Too many stitches and the painkillers made him buzz still. Miller had said he was in no mood for dancing. His leg still hurt and he had promised his wife to take her on a weekend trip this very weekend. Perhaps Dr Armita? Or Dr Lena Offsteader, but to invite your shrink, however nice she was, to a party, felt wrong. Dr Armita, she didn’t know what to make of her yet. She definitely seemed nice but she couldn’t tell if that one had some other feeling for her or not. Perhaps Isobel just had a weird definition of friendship? She had lost some friends over the year and had not many to begin with, so she really strained herself here trying to find out if there were anyone else? There was this half Finnish girl in the reception that she talked to sometimes getting to work, but no. Really not that many. Her neighbors? Nope, not really. She decided that it had to be a small gathering. Send – now it was done. Isobel couldn’t really decide if she felt frighten because she had so few friends or if it was because she was really going to out herself for the ones she had. Never mind that she was in a girl on girl relationship, she was being in a dominant relationship with a Dhampir. Everything that sounded wrong with either description sort of disappeared as she pictured Veronica smiling at her in her mind. Fuck it!

So, here they were, and no Veronica. The club was fancier sort of club with dancefloor, and nice booths so they could eat, drink or talk at their leisure. To appease Veronica, or well to make Veronica know she really desired her and appreciated her, she had a dark blue bell bottom dress with short straight sleaves and a white line hemming. The entire dress had this line, except on the right arm. She had high heels, or for her they were, and around her neck she had a blue velvet choker. She had her necklace on that she had received from her as well. Her two thumbrings were as always in place. Her now very light blonde hair she had in a long pony tail with a a small braid on her left side. Isobel felt a bit lonely, and imagined that Johnny might as well, as they were the only ones not with dates, so far. Sandra had broght Harold and Manus had brought his wife, Clare. John chatted with Johnny however and the two seemed to have a good time. She caught a movement in the corner of her eye and turned her head. Across the dancefloor Veronica made her entrance. She walked like a modell, in her high heels she was a tall godess gliding across the room. Her slim body had curves on the right places. Veronica was sporting a tight black little dress that came to half her thighs, stayups that left an inch or so of bare soft fair skin. Her dark brown eyes sometimes eflected a corona of golden in her irises and her long dark black hair with a tint of purple flowed behind her. Gods be merciful, but this perfect being was her girlfriend. Veronica had her eyes set on one thing. Her. She was like a predator stalking its prey. The first to notice was Sandra that saw that Isobel looked with half open mouth across the dancefloor and nudged Harold. Isobel noticed it in the corner of her eye. And then the tall Dhampir was there in front of her, bowed over from hips, cupped her face gently in her hands and kissed her. She didnt’ know if she imagined that the place got more silent of not, but the table was dead silent at least. Finally Veronica let her go, with a wink of her eye to her.
“Hello love” she said and smiled.
“Hi Roni”” Isobel smiled wide and blushed from the kiss and greeting.
“Hi, I’m Veronica” she said and extended her hand to Sandra who sat closest “You must be Sandra, right?” Veronica said and smiled.
“Hello, Veronica, yes, I’m Sandra. So good to meet you finally!” Sandra was all smiles. “This is my boyfriend, Harold.”
“Hiya, I’m Harold!” Said Harold and looked cheepish.
Sandra rolled her eyes a bit.
“Hello, I’m Johnny, Isobel’s partner. I think we’ve met briefly.” Johnny said and extended his hand.
“Yeah, I recall” Veronica said and nodded. “During Isobel’s first mission I belive?” she looked at Isobel who nodded.
“Yeah, correct. Nice to meet you again Veronica.”
“Likewise Johnny. Nice to meet the man that looks after my little Fairy” she smiled and even grinned showing that she had picked up their nickname for Isobel.
Sandra made a meaningful look to Isobel and mimed a “WOW” and fanned her hand to say she thought Veronica was hot. Isobel just smiled. Sandra wasn’t wrong.
“Hi, I’m Manus, Isobel’s eldest brother” Manus said and extended his hand. “This is my wife Clare” he said and introduced Clare.
“Oh we met” Clare said and smiled at Veronica.
“Yeah, hi Clare, nice to see you again. We met at your dad’s. I even met your kids Manus!” Veronica smiled.
“Oh, wow, well, I’m last to know as usual…”
“Quite the detective!” Isobel grinned and shot her brother a jab.
“This is my partner John” he said and introduced John.
“Hi Veronica, love your dress, and those shoes. Dolce?” he said and squinted his eyes.
“Yes they are” Veronica said with a small smile of surprise.
Manus just smiled and shook his head.
“Well, they suite you really well!” John said and smiled. “Oh, and I consider myself an extra stand-in brother for Isobel!” He said and winked to Isobel.
Isobel winked back and smiled. She and John had found each other quite quickly.
Veronica sat down next to Isobel and kissed her once more.
“Hey there cutey, who are you eh?” She said and winked.
“Oh, me, I’m just some blonde waiting for a tall dark stranger to take me home…” She said and looked with mild enthusiasm at Veronicas lame joke.
“Well, I’m tall and dark…” She said with a smile. “Sorry I’m late” she whispered. “Damn game took longer to finish than I had anticipated.” She smiled appollgeticly.
“Did you win?” Isobel asked.
“Yeah I did!” Veronica grinned wide. “Have you been a good girl? I may buy you something nice!” she winked again and snuggled Isobel with a big smile on her face.
“I’m sorry, do you play poker?” Sandra broke in. “Like online or real, face to face with people-poker?” Sandra showed interest.
“Mostly online, and face to face online in private clubs or casino rooms without television or something as such” Veronica said and smiled. She placed a hand on Isobel’s thigh. “What are you drinking love?” She quickly asked Isobel.
“I just had one drink from the welcome wagon as we came in here. The guys are trying the ales, Sandra and Clare went for some cider of some sort and I waited for you.”
“What for? I could have been even more late you know” Veronica said and laughed.
“Well, remebmer I met you when you stood tending a bar and showed me that really fine bubbly wine? That Italian Spumante, right?”
“Right, see you are a quick learner blondie!” Veronica winked again and double the memroy lane with her first nickname for her, one she used still, very affectionately.
“Yeah, well, anyway, I was thinking that I have like one or two standard drinks and only two sparklings I try, so I was going to yield to your greater experience to surprise me with a nice drink. Got anything our of the ordinary?”
“How about we start of with an oldie instead? How would you like a Fidel Castro?”
“A Fidel Castro?” Isobel almost laughed it out.
“Yeah, gin, ginger ale and one lime. Loads of ice.”
“Sure, I’m game!” Isobel smiled.
“Oh, I think I want to try one as well!” Sandra said.
They ordered and got their drinks quickly. They had good service at this place.
“I’m sorry Sandra, we got sidetracked there for awhile. Was there anything else you wanted to discuss about poker?” Veronica said and turned to Sandra.
Isobel cheered with Johnny and John.

The night progressed nicely and everyone had a good time. Isobel and Veronica was up on the dance floor a few times. Veronica was quite nice to her, but she did start her little games, just as she had warned her. She wanted to show everyone that Isobel was hers. But while she played with her, caressed her and steered her and stuff like that, Isobel had a great time. She didn’t mind. Not even when Veronica necked her up on the dancefloor and held her with the choker and one hand behind her neck holding her in place as she let her tounge penetrate Isobels mouth slowly and repeatedly. The others saw, she was cerain but she didn’t mind. As they sat and waited for their third pair of drinks, Veronica excused herself and went for the ladies room. She had barely left before Sandra dove down next to Isobel, her eyes large and hungry with questions. Isobel looked at her and she just smiled at her.
“What?” Isobel said almost tiredly.
“Hey, you and that tall babe, she a domme or something?” Sandra said and winked her eyes.
Tricky, Isobel thought, but bit her lower lip and nodded to Sandra.
“Shit girl!” She said with a small laugh. “Latex and dominatrix? So she really do tie you up and spank you eh?” Sandra laughed aloud.
“Hey! Not… not all the time OK…” Isobel said and felt her cheeks turning hot.
“Hey, I don’t judge Fairy. Is she good to you?” More concern in her face now.
“Yeah, she really is Sandra. She is really taking care of me. Helps me with my self esteem shit and stuff and well, she does spoil me a bit… She is, well I really love her Sandra.” Isobel confessed.
“Duh! I can see that. Shit, she moved you around like her private little love-toy out there for awhile and you looked like well, you could start charging money in a few seconds…” Sandra grinned. She was a naughty minded girl, and her best friend. “So, is it one way street? Only you who crawl around on all four at hom, eh?” She nudged Isobel.
“Hey, what do you think about us really?”
“Only really naughty stuff. I bet you got good use of the squeaky toy I gave you eh?” Sandra would soon split her head in two if her grin grew wider. That squeaky toy was an anal training toy she had given Isobel once she learned that Isobel had a sore bum after a hot night with Veronica.
“Well” Isobel started “It has seen some use at least…”
“Ohh, if squeaky could speak….” She winked and gave her a hug.
“So how are things on your end?” Isobel nodded towards Harold who taken a seat next to Manus and Johhny.
“Oh, well, my interest in your kinky love-life is because mine is everything but kinky right now.” She sighed.
“Hey babe, whats up?” Isobel asked and felt concern well up.
“Oh, I don’t know, since we talked, things aren’t going better and I just can’t seem to find the right time to ditch him. You got another ones of those fetish diva dommes that likes a bit of Irish?” Sandra gave a sad smile.
“No, but if we need to, we will find you one who spanks you up well enough, don’t you worry!” Isobel smiled and hugged her.
“Hey guys!” Veronica said and slid down next to them again. She managed to give them both a hug and kissed Isobel on the cheek.
“Hey babe!” Isobel said and hugged her tightly, and let one arm stay around Veronicas waist as she sat down after the hug.
“Hey, you got any other funny named drinks Veronica? I feel like getting hammered tonight!” Sandra laughed.
“OH, my, the Irish in you getting lose?” Veronica smiled.
“Always cutie!”
“How about a sweet one? Chanel no 12?” Veronica said.
“What’s that?” Isobel laughed.
“Oh, it’s pineapple juice and sparkling wine.”
“Great, bring ’em on!” Sandra laughed and called for the waiter.

Three small drink glasses stood in front of them. Clare decided to join them, as did John.
“Drinks, damn, I have missed out. I love drinks!” John said with a smile. “Can I taste yours Iso?”
“Sure go ahead John!” Isobel laughed.
“Damn, that was sweet and nice. Waiter, one, oh you want one as well Clare? Two more of these please? Great!” he smiled and sat down.
“The ‘dudes'” Clare said with a dark voice “are talking baseball and football versus soccer.” she shook her head.
“Shit, do we even have decent teams at that?” Sandra said and finsihed her drink.
“No, we are doing shit in baseball and football, we suck in as well. We hardly have a decent football college. I guess we do have a decent Soccer team though. Plenty of europeans at the campus is my guess.” Isobel stated.
“How the heck do you know that?” Veronica laughed.
“Hey, I had to communicate with my dad and my brothers. They do so in morse and sports I figure…”
“And here I thought you ripped out pages of Gun Digest and made scribbled notes…”
“hah hah hah, very funny.” Isobel said and stuck her tounge out.
Her tounge got caught by Veronica though. Damn, she was on fire tonight.
“Get go oh ma onge pease?” Isobel tried.
“HAHAHAHAHA! Shit, your look Fairy, priceless!” Sandra laughed so hard she almost fell out of the sofa. She was definately boozing it tonight.
Veronica let her go with a grin and winked her eye with an almost dangerous flash of underlying appetite for her. She let her go, but made sure Isobel had her hand around her waist again and moved close to her.
“Damn ladies. This drink was really good. How about something else?” John said and looked pleased that he had switched to sit with the ladies. John was good at sports and had been a great athlete in colelge Isobel knew. He just prefered to talk fun and drink cocktails instead of ale.
“How about a French 75?” Veronica said.
The rest of them was mostly in a what? state and decided that Veronica could just order and they drink from now on. Veronica smiled and ordered in the drinks. Clare and Sandra was having a good time. John was really on fire and took Isobel up on the dancefloor. When the music changed to a slow song, Veronica broke in with a smile. She moved up close to Isobel and sort of melted together with her. Her thigh slowly moved between Isobels legs. Veronica was really pushing it and Isobel bit her lower lip, she let it happen. Damn, it felt so good to be out and have fun for once in her life. Being in Veronicas hands was a great way for her to relax. Weird as it was, but it felt so good and she felt relaxed. Even as Veronica took a fistful of her hair and bent her head backwars as she pressed her close and really moved her thigh up Isobels crotch and kissed her deeply she felt OK with it. It’s OK she thought. I’m an agent….

The night had ended late. Isobel had started to order alcohol free drinks after a time without the others noticing. Manus and Clare had shared a cab with John and Sandra and Harold had taken a cab as well. Johnny had already left them, he had found a nice girl in the bar and was off on his own romantic adventures. Isobel lay in Veronicas lap and enjoyed her hair and head being patted. Veronica had taken her in the elevator, in the hallway and then on the sofa. The sex had been rough, passionate and very direct. Veronica had worked up a frenzy in the club and she was all over her. Isobel liked it. She had felt so wanted. She had given as good as she had been given as well and both enjoyed a late movie about, well something, it was mostly a distraction and relaxed in each othes comfort.
“So did you get a chance to talk about me?” Veronica said with a hint of knowing in her voice.
“What?”
“You and Sandra, damn but you can see that she really haven’t gotten over letting you go girl..” Veronica smiled. “Too bad for her that your mine now!” She kissed Isobel on the head.
“Yeah, well we talked a bit. She wanted one like you for herself” Isobel stated.
“Oh, Harold not enough to put out the fire?” the joke was pretty funny.
“Seems he is not manning the pump enough…” Isobel said trying to keep up on the theme.
“Not hoosing her down?” Veronica laughed at their silly jokes.
“No, oh now I feel bad for joking about her misery” Isobel said sadly.
“Hey, don’t. She have to make up her mind. She is a hot irish redheaded girl. She will have not problem attracting attention that one!” Veronica smiled. “So you two eh?”
“Yeah” Isobel stated shortly.
“OK, I won’t push” Veronica said and started to massage Isobels scalp.
“Ohhhhh damn that’s good…”
“So what did you say?”
“She asked if you were good to me and took good care of me. She also thinks I’m crawling around on all fours when you haven’t tied me up for a good spanking…”
“Oh, she gives good ideas…” Veronica laughed lightly.
“Hah hah hah.”
“So what did you say?”
“About crawling around getting spanked?”
“No, about me taking good care of you or not?”
Isobel tilted her head slightly so she could see Veronica. “What do you think silly?” She said with a smile. “I told her you are good to me. Really good to me. The best!” She hugged Veronicas leg.
“I really try love!” Veronica whispered and continued to massage her scalp.
“Mmmm, you are doing a great job. So what do you see in me?”
“Apart from the great sex? The hot warrior type who can go on for hours in bed? Who lets me have my way with her but still opposes me sometimes and makes this so damned fun and hot? You mean more than your lovely smile, your kind words to me, the way you hug me and look at me sometimes and the way you make me smile and care? Hmm, must be your great taste in coffee and women I guess..” Veronica said and grinned.
“Heh, yeah, can’t argue with those two, I really do have good taste in coffee and women!” Isobel laughed but got cut short as she went into purring nicely when Veronica massaged her even more.

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